Self Expression

At one point, all I wanted was to fit in. I just wanted to look the same as everyone else, talk like everyone else, be like everyone else and just blend into the crowd. Then one day, slowly, my mindset started to change. 

It started by me getting my crutches (post here) and cutting my hair off and dyeing it all bright colours. At first i was worried what people might think, that I was too different - especially at an all girls school with a very strict dress code - but eventually I decided that I just don't care. 

When I cut my hair off (I went from boob length to pixie cut) my mum nearly cried and I was a little worried what people would think - it wasn't particularly feminine or girly and I knew that this might attract some judgement but I'm so glad I did it. It may seem like such a silly, small thing, but finally getting the guts to cut all my hair off actually turned into a massive confidence boost for me. The same goes for dyeing my hair (people tend to stare when your hair is green, blue and purple) but I love it. Having bright hair has become a massive part of how I see myself and I have no idea what I'm going to do when I have to go back to 'normal' colours (the upkeep is so expensive!)

I used to hate it when people stared at me, I used to think they stared because of my disability and maybe they did and still do - but now I see my differences as something to celebrate. I'd rather have bright hair, bright crutches and feel comfortable in my own skin than try to fit in and please everyone else. If you want bright hair or you want to wear something that's not 'on trend' at the moment, you go for it, because nothing feels more fabulous than finally being yourself. As long as you're not hurting anyone then you do you and don't let anyone tell you that being you is wrong. 


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