Meds & Me

I've always been pretty open about everything in my life, and my mental health is no exception to this. I believe that talking if you're struggling and ending the stigma around mental illness is hugely important - yet one thing I still have the occasional issue with is taking my medication. 

I've never officially been diagnosed, but in April 2013 I was prescribed antidepressants and anti anxiety medication by my GP. I was sceptical but in all honesty should have been on them years earlier - it turns out that medication really does work for me, providing I take it. 

I guess I originally equated taking medication to weakness. I hadn't been diagnosed so I couldn't see why I'd need medication when there was nothing wrong with me and I could handle everything myself. Looking back now, I can see that I couldn't handle anything and that taking my medication has made a massive difference in my life, but hindsight is a wonderful thing and at the time I couldn't see it. It was tough to convince myself that taking medication is okay - but eventually I started to think that I don't see using my crutches for my physical wellbeing as a weakness, so why should taking medication for my mental health be any different. 

That isn't to say that I haven't been awful at taking my medication at times throughout the past few years. Sometimes I'll feel so good and so much like my old self that I forget that I need it, and other times I feel so low and so empty that I'm not worthy of taking medication to feel better, but that's the nature of mental illness. Recently I have taken my medication consistently and I have found that I feel a lot better for it. I don't believe medication makes me happy, it just allows me to find happiness. 

If you should be taking medication, then take it. If you're having issues with your medication then see your GP and try an alternative, but please don't do what I did and think that taking medication makes you any less of a warrior, because believe me, it doesn't. 


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